Looking through the wrong end of the binoculars?
For the past 18 months I have worked part time (about 25 hours per week) as we slowly reorganize our small business to the new shareholders. In another 6 months I plan to be in the office one day a week as well as work on some specific projects from home as they arise, all on an hourly basis. After almost 30 years as the financial dude in the company, I am so excited to take a back seat. Or at least I was.
This past month there have been some changes and opportunities in the industry that the company in in that are quite positive, albeit a bit nerve racking. On one hand I enjoy the planning chatter at work, but on another level I just want to bolt. Things are always more enjoyable when the dollars roll in, but when things are not going well I physically suffer to the point where i have to bolt.
So that is the background. I realize that it is different owning a company as opposed to working in a mega corp, or perhaps a smaller version of a mega corp, but I am sure that the emotions are the same. My question to the board is why do I feel guilty, why do I feel remorse? I thought I made my peace with my decision almost two years ago? Against all logic, why do I feel as I failed?
Just putting this out there to the many of you who have gone through this or are beginning the process themselves.