Three years and one month later
Bump! Time for an update.
If there's one thing I've learned about growing older, it is much better than the alternative. This will probably be too long for most.
For starters, in the older levels of the senior community maybe ages 70+, the first thing I've noticed is that there is a very, very wide difference in activity levels... some because of health, but others, a matter of choice. Yes... one of DW's friends is 91... and is never home. Out to eat, visiting children, playing bridge in tournaments, or even more likely.. taking the gambling bus, out to the river casinos... an hour away...
On the other hand, next door neighbor is 84... reasonably healthy, but enjoys her home, and lives quite independently, but trips away from home are just to help her grown children, grandchildren and great grandchildren.
Others travel at age 85, and others never leave their house or apartment in our CCRC..
All kinds and everyone different.
So entering the 80th year, what do we do?
First, we are reasonably healthy... some of the normal ailment progressions of old age... arthritis, some hearing impairment, loss of muscle strength, Flomax
, UTI's, and always... taking more time to get out of a chair, up from the floor (when fixing things). We walk the mall for some exercise, but never enough.
Other things:
We were very social as a couple in our previous senior communities, but not so much any more. The young Florida active communities had large rec halls or clubhouses, and parties, cookouts and entertainment were a constant, almost everyday activity. We could not do this today. One major activity is enough. So... we spend a lot of time watching TV, and much too much time on the computer.
For me, browsing the web is a dream come true. Virtually no Email as most of our closest friends have either passed, or are far away and living their own lives. Email with our kids, but just enough to stay in touch...
I love to explore history, geography, politics, medicine... and everything in "today's" news. I've even learned a
tiny bit about money, though it no longer seems important. More fun comes from studying the economy, and the macro view of the world... with an eye to the neartime future of the markets.
An update on the Alzheimers... A little hard to quantify. Pretty much what you've heard, but now it's personal, and I am able to look at specifics... Surely boring to most, but for whatever purpose, some 1st person observations.
The last thing I want is a doctor's diagnosis. To what purpose? A few months delay of symptoms? No! the kiss of death... no driving, and a branding that will last for the remaining days or years.
Memory... mostly short term, like "what did I do yesterday?" Actually unimportant.
Short attention span... on the way to the car to get something out of the trunk, decide to check the wiper fluid. Often ending up in another room and thinking "why did I come here?"
Names... I'd say names and faces, but in my adult life I've been cursed with Prosopagnosia, so ths newer problem is names. Names of people, but now... and more often:
Proper Names names... things, places, and even worse:
Dictionary words. The computer is the workaround for this problem when alone, but when in company of person who understand... a brief pause that gives them a chance to fill in the "word" without a major problem or embarassment.
Some workarounds that have helped:
Reserved places... Now, every
thing has a place. Kitchen cabinets, pantry... clothes closets, garage shelves etc. Always a work in progress. Very important.
Habits... a bit more "iffy"... but seemingly unimportant things like looking in the mirror before leaving the house... shave? clothing? zipper? This may sound silly, but it's a must!. The other habits are (for both of us) first thing in the morning. To do's on the calendar, Date, Day of the week, expected weather, and maybe meals.
Have discussed the Alzheimer's with all of my kids, and finally convinced them to understand that it's happening. I still become angry when people say... "Oh that's normal... everyone forgets... you don't have Alzheimers." Knowing and admitting reduces the stress that comes from others discussing it behind your back, and usually trying to handle an AZ moment with kid gloves.
So how has life changed?
We don't go out to eat very often. Usually only with friends or our kids. I think we enjoy eating at home, at our own pace... maybe in the eliving room watching TV... Dessert at any time... Lunch between 11 and 3, dinner between 4 and 8... maybe together, maybe alone... whatever!
DW has decided that our 15 years of living at Woodhaven is "camping" and she doesn't want to do that any more. Except when the kids come to visit, Woodhaven is out of the question. Now... that doesn't apply to me, so we amicably agree to be apart for three or four days at a time during the spring, summer and fall... when I go to WH alone to bike, canoe, and commune with nature. A short half hour drive away from our home in Peru, it's an easy trip back and forth... when she needs help with anything, or if either of us gets lonesome. Woodhaven is my "man cave"... no TV or internet, unless I go to the senior center where both are always available. We have many weekend and vacation neighbors at WH and there are usually lots of kids around. they use my lakeside property for fishing, and my paddle pontoon boat... I also have a "stable" of bicycles that are there for anyone to use. I have a small following of little kids for which I keep a
stash of toys, fishing poles, coloring books, etc... We have story time and games. It's like "the old days"... when kids were outside, played together and made up their own rules. A break from play dates, adult organized games and Chucky Cheese parties.
We no longer travel. I truly believe we got that out of our system. Long trips in the car trigger creaky bones, and it takes more concentration to drive safely. Like it or not, reaction times are longer, and the normal 80 mph in the 70mph posted speed limits results in more stress in keeping up with traffic, or the alternative of having every car on the road passing your car. So it's mostly back roads, and planned for a more leisurely drive.
You really don't want to know the physical or mental condition of the many seniors with whom you are sharing the road. Am absolutely certain, though, that the very last instinctual process that stays with older persons, is the ability to drive.
There are some downsides to Alzheimers that don't affect every victim, but which are common. In my own case, an increasing impatience that causes grief. A rush to judgement, Spurts of anger, Intolerance for the faults or actions of others. That little angel that used to remind me to "look before you leap" has fallen down on her job. I find that I am especially critical of actions the involve matters with which I have a fair degree of expertise, as in things pertaining to the retail trade, or specialty areas that I studied in school and after. The single area that I now have under control is avoidance of discussing politics. I love to watch politics. I have strong opinions. I desperately try to keep this under control. I have one son who agrees with me, and we spend an hour a week on Skype bringing out the truth!... Building our manifesto... our noble plan to fix the ills of the whole world. The saving grace for these declining years... Someone who agress with me.
Perhaps the most important part of reaching four score, is the acknowledgement of the tightrope that we walk... healthwise. Two related things have happened:
1. Facing the reality that the future is limited and what is today may not be tomorrow.
2. Appreciating what we have, what we can still do, and trying to make the most of life by doing what we want, while doing our best to do for others.
Sorry for the use of the "I" word, but this is personal... not as advice to others, but to explain one person's perception of growing old(er).
Cheers