calmloki
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I'm very content with my life right now, but I'm worried about the future. I see all these elderly homeless people everywhere, and I'll think, "wow, that could be me someday." I've never felt like that in the past. Time is just moving so fast now.
I think a lot of guys go thru midlife crises because they get married young, start a family, and gring for 20 years. When the smike clears, they're still telling stories about stuff they did in HS.
I feel like I'm having a midlife crisis myself but for very different reasons. I look back at all the cool experiences and life that I've lived, but I'm staring onto a future with no security, no family, and no sense of purpose. It's like I'm in a consulate of "well, what now."
What's crazy is that I've noticed that a lot of women in my past aren't facing this because they've simply partnered up with someone that can provide. As a guy, that's not a card I can really play. The whole "sugar mama" thing is fun to joke about, but the truth is that very few women that have their ducks in a row, want to deal with a guy that doesn't in middle age.
Anyways,
If I really put my mind to it and got motivated, I could probably make another 20k a year without killing myself. I feel like I have issues with time management. I'm a bit of a procrastinator. Like I'll show up at a job an hour late and not get it finished that day because I want to go to the gym before it's crowded.
I also lack patience or any sort of tolerance with people from being self employed. Like, I'll do an estimate for some lady on what would be a pretty lucrative job and still turn it down because they seem like they might be a pain in the @$$. I know guys in this business that are really successful, and they can somehow deal with these types without losing their minds. I don't know how they do it. I just don't got that gift. I can't deal with customer blowing my phone up all day and asking a million questions. I'll just find ways to not deal with about 10% of the human population, which isn't good if you run a business.
OK. Lots of ways to live a life. Everyone makes their own choices. Keep doing what you are doing. Be assured, with no changes odds are the future you envision is very probable.
Want something different? Do something different. All choices cost., now or later.