On my way to FIRE never drank in my life. Currently totally plastered on Rum and Vodka. Feels really good but wondering what is causing my change in underlying principles. Is it it that I am almost a free man or am I losing it? Anybody have any crazy mid-life life changes?
Good answers so far. Look at what has or is changing.
some people get their identity from their work, sense of self worth. This may even happen if they hate their job. Crushing your self esteem by removing the work can be hard. One would need to find things in their life that bolster self worth.
Others need the structure work provides. Work provides a routine. I've seen some people on this forum talking and showing schedules for their time that are very repetitive week in and week out. Me, I keep a calendar of things I've committed to, appointments, etc. But week to week are very different typically.
Throw the bottles out. It does not sound like they are helping you now. Make some defined changes short term. Try setting a schedule. Learn a new hobby or be more involved in one you already do. Something that lets you see accomplishment. Exercise... bike ride, run ... whatever. Join a club.
Work on some goals, things you want to accomplish. These can be to see some number of new birds if you are into bird watching, cook something new every week... whatever.
When I was laid off in 2010 I got out my old bicycle from the '80s. Within a couple weeks I was riding centuries. A little while later I was riding 3 to 4 centuries every week. Then I found a job and my accomplishment of improved fitness rotted away.
Throw the bottles out as they are not helping right now... and you know it based on your post. Try setting some structure in your life... at least for now.
good luck.