I married in 1970 (age 19), divorced 1971 (age 20), legally took back my maiden name, though had hardly changed anything to married name anyway. So, definitely consider myself single and have put that on any documents since. There is almost nothing documenting the marriage anywhere.
I never planned to retire. I wanted to work until I couldn't walk or maybe until I couldn't remember my name any longer. I loved working and feeling needed and productive. However, in 2018, in preparation for a merger, my company laid off 2/3 of its employees and I was one. I didn't worry, it wasn't the first time I'd lost a job. I've been through two mergers, a company going bankrupt, and just left a few jobs I really hated. I'd never been more than two weeks without a job, unless I chose to take more time, and always got an offer within 2 or 3 interviews. I have great skills in legal, HR, IT, and project management. So, having to look for a job has never stressed me, or been any problem for me.
I found, however, that it's different when you are 68 years old. Even though anyone will tell you I don't look or act 68, it made a big difference in my job search this time. I got plenty of really good interviews. Obviously, passed them, because I would move on from the phone interview, to the face-to-face lower level management or HR interview, all the way to the executive, where I'd be told I was one of X number of "equally qualified" finalists. Then I wouldn't get the offer. After 45 years of working, over 15 in HR, I pretty much know all the standard interview questions and techniques, but this time I notice that I kept getting asked, in one way or another, "how long do you expect to be with the company?" Which implies I don't plan to stay forever, or that forever isn't going to be long. That is not a question I've heard asked of anyone 30, 40 or even 50 years old, even if they have a busy job history. So, I can only think they are looking at age and thinking I will retire (or die) soon. Most of the interviewers were young enough to be my grandchildren, so I'm sure that's what they thought of when they saw my age, which they would get from a background check (I never show it anywhere).
After 9 months of actively searching, doing well on any tests and having great feedback from interviews, I simply wouldn't get the job. I finally got tired and decided to give up. I probably would have gotten a job eventually, but I didn't want to get one because no one (or younger) was available, or a job that was less than what I was capable of and worth. So, I chose to retire.
I built this house 30 years ago to move my parents in with me. I am an only child and they both were getting older and had medical issues, and could not drive any longer. I live in Texas, they were in Oregon and I just couldn't take off and go up there to see about them every time something happened. My mother has always been my best friend anyway, and we have lots of fun together. So, they were my family and my sense of purpose outside the job. I loved caring for them and making life better for them, and they loved the new house, warmer climate and friends they made here. I expected to have my mother around another 20 years, as she was exactly 20 years older than me, and my grandfather had lived to 83. They passed away in 1999 & 2000 respectively (Mom had only been 70 for 4 days) and I was left with just the cat and a 4 bedroom home. While I was working it was not so bad, but since I've been retired, the house seems way too big, too cluttered and too full of memories. I'd like to build a smaller house, but cannot find a lot I can afford. Most lots I've seen within 50 miles of here, cost as much as my whole house and property is worth just for the land. I try to keep busy, by volunteering to run the office at my church one day a week, since we cannot afford to pay the secretary for 5 days a week anymore, teaching an ESL class one night a week and I keep in touch with many old co-workers and friends who are also retired and try to get together for lunch with each of them a couple times a month. I have always had a cat, but now have 3, due to a friend taking 2 kittens and then not being able to care for them. Three is more work to feed and keep litter boxes cleaned, but also a lot more expensive to board, so I don't go anywhere overnight.
I only had about $200K in retirement funds, because I hadn't planned to retire for many more years and I traveled and enjoyed my life while I was young, not worrying so much about retirement. I took SS at age 66 and was putting all of it into my 401K, and planned to continue that for at least another 10 years, before the lay off changed my plans. I try to live of the SS now, and take enough out of my retirement funds to pay things like property taxes, insurances, and mortgage, or if an unplanned emergency comes up.
The unfortunate thing is that after having no reason to get up early in the morning and not a lot that I have to do every day and no one holding me accountable for anything, I have developed very bad habits. I stay up late, sleep in till 7am, sit around most of the morning, watch way too much TV and basically have no motivation or energy anymore. I have grown accustomed to not having to dress, do hair and makeup, or go anywhere every day, so don't think I could take a full-time job now if one came along. I lack to discipline to be dependable. I like doing what I want, when I want, and answering to no one.
Being an only child, I have no siblings and thus no nieces or nephews. I only have one living first cousin, but she lives in another state and while we communicate regularly, I've not seen her in years. So, holidays are no longer special, as it's just another day for me and the cats. If my cousin outlives me, she is my beneficiary, but I have no alternate if she should go first.
One of the problems of being single, is that most of my friends have children and grandchildren, so they are busy all the time and it's difficult to find anyone to do things with when I do have the time or money. I would like to be able to afford to travel more, as many of my best friends live out of state, but I worry about outliving my money, so don't want to spend excessively. I am lucky to be able to make ends meet and should do okay for at least 20 years if I continue to be conservative. After that I can always get a reverse mortgage and be okay for another 20 years. I have many older friends who are still working because they cannot afford to retire, but they would like to. So, I am grateful that I can, but I'm still struggling with the fact that I have no purpose and could die in my sleep and maybe not be found for weeks.
Overall it's a good news/bad news, or the best of times/worst of times, kind of thing. Love not having to deal with the politics and people pleasing of the office every day, but miss having a reason to get up in the morning and feel I'm needed by someone other than the cats. Wish I knew more people who didn't have so many family obligations and could hang with me more. I do a lot of things on my own and enjoy most of it, but the really special things, not every day errands, just aren't enjoyable alone. Who wants to go to the movies, a nice restaurant, or the State Fair by yourself? And I really don't want to drag someone's grandkids along with us.
I expected my father to die even before he did, as he had many medical issues, but my mother had been healthier than me her whole life, until she got non-hodgkins lymphoma and then it was just over by the time it was discovered. Had I known I'd be this alone, for this long, I think I might have gotten married. I was engaged 5 times after my divorce, but always found a reason to break it off, and my parents were always there for consolation. And I didn't think I'd live this long. Most of you are not as old as me, but I remember when I thought 50 was old and I had to get everything done before then. If I'd only known....