SteveR said:
This strikes me as a little odd. Are you saying you are more uphappy about going home at the end of the day than getting up and going into work at a boring dead end job? If so, then retirement may make you very unhappy since you will most likely be home more than you have been. If being home is an issue for you I have serious concerns about you having a successful retirement. If I am reading this wrong I apologize, but this sentence just struck my as odd.
That is good insight on your part. No, Im glad you are having this discussion with me. This is something that I have to look into. Like I said, the job is very boring, but the reason I dont like the trip home is that perhaps it is just the schlep home, since I have no energy, or perhaps it is the boring life at home. I dont look forward to much at home and there isnt much to do in my area, no intellectual stimulation in my suburb.
Most of the stuff that does interest me is in Manhattan where I work, but to stay there and participate and meet new people is hard, since it is a long schlep home once the rush hour is over.
I would like a hobby, I do jog, but when you get up at 6 am, get in at 9, then get home in the darkness at about 6, you dont have much energy to get inbovled with anything. I need to jog to maintain my mental and physical health, or whats left of it.
Ive been so involved with issues involving workabuse, and abuse in general, that I didnt develop any hobbies to take on except for my jogging and walking.
My wife sits and freakin watches TV all night long, and she doesnt seem to want to talk much or analyse things with me.
But you have a very good point about my bordem. Im going out to the new house this Jan, perhaps the neighborhood and newness of the area will stimulate me somewhat.
Not only is the question financial, the question about ER is also what to do with the time. Im trying to bank that I would fall into a situation where I can adjust the time I spend more economically to concentrate on new interests.
I need to develop new things, since most of my life I was battling problems with my nerves and mind, and didnt have time to sit down and get into something, save for jogging which doesnt take much thought.
Its a hard question about when to retire, Im taking a financial risk if I go now, but if I wait 4 years, Im taking a risk that I may not be around or in good health to enjoy it. Im turning 53 now and my mental health goes from good to lousy.
My physical health could be iffy too, since I dont know what damage has been done to my body from the psyche abuse. My wife has the same problem. We were almost killed several times by our son who was on alcohol, I work near ground zero, have no idea what that did to me. I take blood pressure and nerve meds, my doc says Im pretty healthy, just have problems with my mind that affects my bp, I was born with this tendency I guess. So I really dont know.
I feel good now, can run 5 miles now, but I see people my age dropping dead.
My wife just called and told me her nerves are also shot from her job which is very stressful, but she works 10 minutes from home Its weird, maybe we both need to say F--k you to the world, move to Vegas and live like freakin hippies
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