This is sort of off topic but I can't help it, I am feeling SO ornary right now....I was a very bad girl at work today. Here's the low down:
First, I have to tell you that this past August 14 (my birthday), I made a decision to chose Aug 14 2010 as my target ER date, with a caveat that I am free to change my mind. It's a decision that helps me get through each day at a really bad job. NO ONE at my work knows, or suspects, and won't find out until August 1. Second, I have to tell you that it my department has been total chaos and stress and overtime, and everyone is a little bitter and burned out. So....I just couldn't help myself today - I started a benign rumor. We had just finished a management meeting in which we were informed that a huge project looms right around the corner and we won't be getting any extra bodies to assist, and someone mentioned that "staff is going to freak out". That's when I said, "yeah, I know! In fact, I am aware of at least one person that intends to leave, they are so fed up". He looked at me and waited for me to whisper a name, but I didn't. I am just delighted that no one has a clue I am planning my exit, and they really will FREAK OUT because I am one leg of a 3-legged management stool, and if I depart, the other 2 legs are going to be in a great deal of doo doo.
I am certain they will ask me to go part time, or to contract, and I will listen, but I won't bite. "I, um, have other plans, thanks."
Thank you for letting me speak my truth iin all its hatefulness and bad karma. They (the corp) have pushed me to this attitude, and the great thing is that I am GRATEFUL. I feel like I have won the lottery, and find it quite easy to break a smile in the midst of tough situations at work.
To bring this post back around to the topic of ER nerds, I have my faithful spreadsheet that I created the first week I began my career, and I am proud that I still use it nearly every single day. I have been feverishly revising it lately though, to account for this early ER journey. Indeed, the subject of ER is a hobby, and I actually get endorphins playing with the numbers.