After watching my 45 yr old sister lose the almost 3 yr battle of colon cancer, my outlook has changed a bit. God bless strong opioids that seemingly made her pain tolerable because I could tell she was hurting bad. They say a young heart fights harder and there is truth to that. I just try to be the best person I can be while here, present for my children, caring to my family. I sometimes get hung up on the idea of non existence and need to kind of train my brain to just live and love the moment. Unfortunately nothing lasts forever.