HealthyFuture
Recycles dryer sheets
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- May 12, 2021
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I don’t read every post on the forum, but I know I’ve read a fair number about departures in which people were sooooo ready to leave their place of work. I haven’t read as many where people found it hard to leave. So I thought I’d share this side of the coin as I go through it so that people know this experience is normal, too.
I made the decision about a year ago that I’d be on my way sometime within the year, roughly age 50. Money seemed on target. Plenty of motivators re health and time left on earth, aging loved ones, etc. And I was feeling all kinds of burnout from the domino effects of the pandemic at work and in general being WAY done with people up
the chain/at the top. As an optimist, I was struggling to bring a positive attitude into the workplace, which just isn’t me.
Fast forward to January - I tell my boss I’ll be leaving this summer. So now it’s real. And my attitude about work begins to change. I get energy and enthusiasm for my work again, like some of my burnout has disappeared. Yes, the people up the chain still annoy the sh*t out of me. But I don’t focus on them. It is like because I know how finite the remaining time is, I have so much gratitude for it, and for my team, even though we are navigating a hard time with some stuff going on. I feel joy solving problems and helping clients and sharing what I know with my team. I see the impact I’ve made over these many years with them, and I see that I could have found this same gratitude, this same attitude, some months earlier if I simply had chosen to take a different perspective.
I end up crying when a deeply-trusted colleague asks me six weeks ago “are you sure?” about leaving, as she knows how much I love our work. I will miss being the leader on whom members of my team lean when things are hard, and with whom they celebrate when we have a win. I will miss sharing my hard-earned knowledge, and getting everyone energized or at least motivated to work in the same direction.
My direct reports have known for as long as I have that I’ll be leaving; it’s just the type of relationship we have (for which I am deeply grateful). We have held this secret for the better part of a year. But this week I will tell their direct reports — the broader team. I bring myself to tears when I walk through in my head the words I plan to say. And I suspect the tears will come when I say them for real.
Leaving my leadership role is more difficult than I’d envisioned it would be. And that is saying a lot as there are some pretty sh*tty things occurring within the broader organization which affect us all.
I do not believe the decision I am making is wrong. But that doesn’t make it easy, either. I would love to hear from anyone out there who found it hard to leave, but all turned out just fine. (If it didn’t turn out fine, skip telling me! [emoji1])
I made the decision about a year ago that I’d be on my way sometime within the year, roughly age 50. Money seemed on target. Plenty of motivators re health and time left on earth, aging loved ones, etc. And I was feeling all kinds of burnout from the domino effects of the pandemic at work and in general being WAY done with people up
the chain/at the top. As an optimist, I was struggling to bring a positive attitude into the workplace, which just isn’t me.
Fast forward to January - I tell my boss I’ll be leaving this summer. So now it’s real. And my attitude about work begins to change. I get energy and enthusiasm for my work again, like some of my burnout has disappeared. Yes, the people up the chain still annoy the sh*t out of me. But I don’t focus on them. It is like because I know how finite the remaining time is, I have so much gratitude for it, and for my team, even though we are navigating a hard time with some stuff going on. I feel joy solving problems and helping clients and sharing what I know with my team. I see the impact I’ve made over these many years with them, and I see that I could have found this same gratitude, this same attitude, some months earlier if I simply had chosen to take a different perspective.
I end up crying when a deeply-trusted colleague asks me six weeks ago “are you sure?” about leaving, as she knows how much I love our work. I will miss being the leader on whom members of my team lean when things are hard, and with whom they celebrate when we have a win. I will miss sharing my hard-earned knowledge, and getting everyone energized or at least motivated to work in the same direction.
My direct reports have known for as long as I have that I’ll be leaving; it’s just the type of relationship we have (for which I am deeply grateful). We have held this secret for the better part of a year. But this week I will tell their direct reports — the broader team. I bring myself to tears when I walk through in my head the words I plan to say. And I suspect the tears will come when I say them for real.
Leaving my leadership role is more difficult than I’d envisioned it would be. And that is saying a lot as there are some pretty sh*tty things occurring within the broader organization which affect us all.
I do not believe the decision I am making is wrong. But that doesn’t make it easy, either. I would love to hear from anyone out there who found it hard to leave, but all turned out just fine. (If it didn’t turn out fine, skip telling me! [emoji1])