Despite an insatiable appetite for travel (and love of adventure), I was recently surprised by a much stronger desire: pouring time and attention into my new (and only, so far) grandchild.
DH and his lovely wife brought Dear Little Granddaughter into the world in January. DH and I never had a daughter. Relations with my own mother have always been strained; but-- growing up---- I was extremely close to my own grandmother.........who became (for me) the model of all "grandmother-hood."
The bucket list said I wanted to teach overseas some day. Just last month I had an offer to teach English for six weeks of summer school in China.
Have turned it down, for now. Despite my current busy-ness with moving to a condo, what REALLY beckons is that dear little baby napping just 15 min. away from my new neighborhood.
As a working parent throughout my son's growing years, I rarely had open spans of time to just enjoy life hanging out with him on his schedule. Now--- retired--- time
can be more open. I don't intend to become the child care provider, but will babysit sometimes for DS's nights out with his DW, and have offered to be their back up sitter when little granddaughter has to stay home from childcare if she is sick.
Years of reading, baking cookies, feeding birds, walking in the park------ "quantity" of time sometimes really does supersede "quality" crammed-in moments. ER bought me time: first, to enjoy a couple years with DH before he passed; time for DH and I to enjoy DS's engagement and wedding plans; and now, time to try to be for my granddaughter what my dear grandmother was to me.
I may only get 11 or 12 years, before those middle-school years kick in. Then she might not want to hang out with Grandma. (Though I did up through age 18, when my family moved 3,000 miles away; but I still went back East to see her every two years.)
I still look forward to at least a couple 2-3 week vacations each year, with friends. But the rest of the year does seem to glow on the horizon.......with the adventure of learning how to be a good Grandma!