This will be my last post on this topic as it had strayed very far off course.
I'm not going to address any more posts directly because again, they are very far off base.
Sometimes things sound/seem differently when you dont know the whole picture. There is a lot more i can not nearly explain on a forum - nor do I want to. Once closeminded people see the word 'felon', 'divorceee', 'illegal activities' etc, their minds are already swayed...that predisposition will filter through all of their interactions with me....until they KNOW me. Thats understandable...I used to be that way too. Unfortunately (FORTUNATELY?) I did not lead a sheltered, privileged life as I grew up. I faced adversity every step of the way and have risen above the mess. Still though, as life goes on, my past experiences and relationships affect my life. Such is life. I can not avoid it,so i work through it. I'm 25 years old, still unsure of my true purpose here...as many are. I work 60 hrs/week to provide for my family. I am saving for a retirement. I am raising my children in an environment 10x better than my fiance (ooohhh.he said fiance!!) or myself ever had. I am fostering relationships with new people in positions I WANT to be in one day. I volunteer 4hrs month at a local outreach center. I volunteer 10+ hrs/month as a course planner/teacher with Junior Achievement, a program dedicated to teaching high school youth about entrepreneurship. I'm not some scumbag drug dealing wife beating control freak who neglects his family. Instead I'm a normal person who's taken a slightly different path in life. I'm trying to change the faults that make me an imperfect person. I will never be perfect, but will never stop trying.
Several people have contacted me outside the public forum with their sincere input to avoid the ridicule of those who have taken an obviously negative, aggressive stance towards my situation....and I thank them for that.
To those who have taken the other road, i thank you too. It is people like yourself that keep me going strong...I strive in the face of adversity. I UNDERSTAND where you are coming from, I really do. My ex teachers, co-workers, even family have treated me that way at times. Sometimes I have seen that there are underlying reasons to their approach. Sometimes not. But all in all, most have come around once they get to know me a little better. although that is unlikely in this social setting, I hope you can keep an open mind. i dont feel negatively toward any of you.
thanks
jason