SO and myself have about everything we could want, except family. Most have died off, rest of our families fragmented after the patriarchs died.
Anyway, we have a snowbird house in Florida, rent it to some friends and stay with them a few times a year, we rent it since we can't go stay for weeks or months like we'd like, we both still work so we're still busy at home.
But, no matter what we do or try it's like we're not having fun anymore. Just going through the motions waiting on "The Day" when we cut the cord. A concert or weekend away is a short respite and my hobbies now sometimes create more anxiety than joy because of the time they consume.
It seems when we do plan something we'll enjoy, the closer it gets the more we just want it to be over with to get back to our daily lives rather than enjoy the event. We don't seem to enjoy our lives, but it obviously gives us comfort in that we're in control of it and can't wait to get back to it and away from what was supposed to be fun and new.
I'd think at mid 50's we'd be more into rolling with the flow and wanting to expand our horizons rather than dreading the next day, and the next.
We both freak out when things don't go as planned at home, with working when ever there's a hickup at home we get into a panick as to how to fix it with limited time, and we find no joy in about anything because the back to work cloud is always there on Monday to Friday.
It's like we live for weekends again like when we were kids, but now it's 2 days of solid weekend warrior just to stay caught up and start the cycle all over again.
We try to not watch the news as it makes us even more cynical.
I did have one older guy say being cynical is the only thing that brings him joy anymore. But, I don't want to be that guy.
I'm beginning to think making the break from full time work is what we need, we're both still at work 10 hrs a day by the time we leave home, commute, work and get home, 5 days a week.
Anyone else find that making that final break into ER solved a similar problem?
Anyway, we have a snowbird house in Florida, rent it to some friends and stay with them a few times a year, we rent it since we can't go stay for weeks or months like we'd like, we both still work so we're still busy at home.
But, no matter what we do or try it's like we're not having fun anymore. Just going through the motions waiting on "The Day" when we cut the cord. A concert or weekend away is a short respite and my hobbies now sometimes create more anxiety than joy because of the time they consume.
It seems when we do plan something we'll enjoy, the closer it gets the more we just want it to be over with to get back to our daily lives rather than enjoy the event. We don't seem to enjoy our lives, but it obviously gives us comfort in that we're in control of it and can't wait to get back to it and away from what was supposed to be fun and new.
I'd think at mid 50's we'd be more into rolling with the flow and wanting to expand our horizons rather than dreading the next day, and the next.
We both freak out when things don't go as planned at home, with working when ever there's a hickup at home we get into a panick as to how to fix it with limited time, and we find no joy in about anything because the back to work cloud is always there on Monday to Friday.
It's like we live for weekends again like when we were kids, but now it's 2 days of solid weekend warrior just to stay caught up and start the cycle all over again.
We try to not watch the news as it makes us even more cynical.
I did have one older guy say being cynical is the only thing that brings him joy anymore. But, I don't want to be that guy.
I'm beginning to think making the break from full time work is what we need, we're both still at work 10 hrs a day by the time we leave home, commute, work and get home, 5 days a week.
Anyone else find that making that final break into ER solved a similar problem?