I need help . Got stage 3 cancer 18 months ago and beat it = so far . Went back to work but was always tired , but was told it might be like that after the chemo also had/having short term memory loss . Well I 've been with the company for over 30 years so I've been able to get by and no one noticed but me and my wife . But I didn't like living like that . Got to thinking . Everyone in my family has been healthy and they only made it to mid 70's , so I thought : Need to retire now ( will have to do it sometime ) while I can enjoy it and get around . Not that I live for these things but if I want to go jet skiing , get on a ladder and paint the house , go horseback riding or whatever now is the time . Probably in 10 years my bones will be brittle and I'll be homebound as they are starting to now . No way I'd get up on a ladder or walk all over Disney World 10 years from now . For some reason I thought I could keep my health insurance forever if I payed the full premium . Talked with the doctors and everyone said = You need to slow down and retire now and enjoy life . SO I DID . Well it's overwhelming . Health insurance , I can only keep it for 18 months and I haven't been able to find any insurance that will cover cancer if it comes back ( and there's a 50% chance it could ) Your not considered cured till you've got 7 years under your belt . My 401k needs to be moved to where I make it work for me . Check around on investing and there is all kinds of people wanting to sell : annuities , cd's , stocks /bonds , just all kinds of investment " plans " . My wife can't ( never could ) handle the stress of money / bills . I don't have anyone I can talk to that I can trust and really it's embarrassing also . ( only child and parents and grandparents are departed ) . Started taking naps but now I'm extending them just as an escape coping tool . AND NATURALLY I CAN'T GET MY JOB OR ANY JOB AT THE COMPANY BACK . My world has become extremely small since I retired . Been going to church and i'm going to do some volunteer work but I feel like a failure . Get another job you say = That's a joke as there aren't any jobs in this small town . Wife doesn't want to move away from our kids or our 2 grandkids and I don't want to either . But I need help . So that is why there is this pathetic post . My wife heard this joke at church but I saw it registered a certain way in her head . " Retirement is half the money you had and twice the husband " She loves me but I 'm finding out she can only tolerate me for a short time , like when I was working . Now that I'm home all the time and she works part time it seems she resents me . If she cuts her hours back she's around me more = that's %XOQ* well I'll leave that alone . If she works more hours she resents I'm at home . It appears I've made some terrible mistakes . Any help out there .